She wakes away a stage
—the receding cheers—
herself some indeterminate age
and, it seemed, known
for something she hasn’t done
in forty years.
Distracted, she oversteeps the tea
(as she is prone),
sits in the sunlit living room,
mines a psalm;
noticing the English ivy’s
dry and overgrown,
salvages two lucky cuttings.
Library, bank, the gas station,
a long conversation
with bright, unbowed Joan
at the women’s shelter,
the unspoken word “battered”
seeming to pelt her
like a stone.
Home. A nap.
Tidying up,
she spends an hour in an hour
she spent at home
the evening her mother passed;
considers “passed,”
the warm capillarial light
in which she shone
like (she thought it) a maple leaf
held up to sun
a long unlonelied moment
before the day is done.
The day is done.
She is poured out like water
but still, in bed, talks her daughter
down on the telephone,
then lies with half-shut eyes
stitching and unstitching
all the presences
threaded through alone,
yielding to the slow dance
of grace and circumstance,
a pirouette of silhouette
and solid bone.
This poem was published in Commonweal’s hundredth-anniversary issue, November 2024.